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Sunday, October 30, 2005

so, holidays have started.

hasnt really sunk in that my sec1 days are over. but well, they are. almost a year has passed. and boy, so much has changed.

this year's end of year break wont really be that great. with homework and studying and all.. ohwells. the stress is still there. not much different from school term. looks like it's gonna stay till.. hah. till i die.

all my classmates are going overseas.

been really tired lately.

but i guess closing my eyes and falling asleep is much better than _.

stop.

say what you mean, and mean what you say. dont come and tell me all that nice comforting stuff if you dont mean a word, cos you'd only be proving me right, which you have.

ah screw it.

bye. ♥ 5:22 PM

Thursday, October 27, 2005

sigh. i just took really long to type out this really long post, despite my headache. and then poof! it bloody disappears, just like that. but.. screw it la. like as if blogging my mind here would do any difference.

well. let's just say. this week hasnt been my week. yeah, not at all.

oh, it's raining.

if only you knew.

ugh. maybe i wasnt meant to blog all that i had intended to earlier on.

why dont you make everyone's day.
just send me away.

you there,

yes you, stranger.

goodnight. ♥ 9:45 PM
hey hey!! eunice!!

thanks for inviting me!! haha luv yas!
hmms.
eunice!! let's go work out together!!
haha
kk blog later k?

luv yas!!<333 ♥ 7:15 PM

Monday, October 24, 2005

stop.


let me breathe. ♥ 3:36 PM

Saturday, October 22, 2005

let's see.

thursday was really sian.

friday's shopping was fun. bought some stuff, but i didnt spend so much this time. proud of myself. but out trip to town was kinda incomplete cos we didnt take neoprints. but uhh.. frankly, taking neoprints has lost it's kick.

jazz concert wasnt that nice. kinda disappointing. could yal send me the pics we took?

after the concert, huiting's mum came and gave huiting, sihui, mabel and i a ride back. stayed over at mabel's again. what a pity we forgot to try the wine. ohwells.

in the morning mabel's mum bought us roti prata. i think she's really sweet. like. early in the morning she actually came into the room and covered me with a blanket. yea. after prata, mabel and i went to beautyworld to get daisies for carolyn cos her birthday's coming really soon. the daisies were quite fresh.

then we went to bukit timah plaza to get bandung, cos both of us have been craving for bandung. then i saw a baby roach in the stall. then i told the lady, and she act blur can. waliao. then mabel saw it too. ah, horrible. then after that we went for a lil haircut then we went and exploded those weird popable things mabel bought and then we went back to her house and i got changed and daddy came to fetch me to church.

church was ok lah. just that i felt {thisway} and well.. sucks la. but i guess i cant expect too much outta you. i'll just be there for you when you need me. if you dont then it's ok.

that's all.

my neck has been cracking alot. at first it was ok. now it's getting really frequent and kinda painful sometimes. and once in a while, when i crack my neck, there'll be a tingly sensation at the tip of my fingers. now, that sensation not so tingly. it;s kinda painful. well, i hope nothing's wrong. pray for me though? i'd appreciate it loads. cos i really hope nothing's wrong.

oh. and there's an area on my lower backbone that hurts when i rub it. there isnt any bruise or anything. i really really hope theres nothing wrong with me.

this is so so freaky.

i really really hope theres nothing wrong with me.

orchestra music makes me feel damn emo. actually, i'm starting to feel damn emo cos of {that}, pretty often. and it's not only caused by nice music. stuff like concerts and dinners and sleepovers and going out and taking bus and watching movies and all that. if i get bloody emo, please understand, it;s not cos i'm not having fun. i'm just.. wanting so much more? but i know, my time has not come yet. i'd better enjoy the good things about singlehood, while i'm still single. there's no one to like, anyway.

i'm weird.

sometimes, i really want to quit. but how to run from life? it's impossible. cos after death there's still life after death. so well, gotta learn to depend on Him fully in everything. it's time for me to get serious, seriously.

daddy's back. but he's not the way i kinda expected him to be.

ohwells.

i've got a bottle of tea leftover from my brother's birthday party thing to keep me awake, and a short bath break later on to refresh me. ok. ive gotta do me long overdue missions biography thing now. goodnight.

things just arent gonna work out right. ♥ 11:49 PM

Wednesday, October 19, 2005

hi.

well, got back all my results today. i'm really thankful that i passed everything. i know i should be. and i am. thank you Father, for helping me so so much.

and yet..

it quite sunk it that i didnt do that well.. i'm most prolly at the bottom half of the class. like. i did really badly for chinese listening, and i didnt do that well for geog, though i passed. i couldve gotten much much better for bio, geog, chinese, english, chem, and history. really. if i had been just a bit more hardworking and had taken a different attitude when i was revising, i wldve remembered wad i had to and i cldve gotten at least an A2. if only.. sigh. my marks are mostly B3s, which kinda sucks cos i was kinda expecting at least an A2 for chinese, geog and chem. more or less got the worst in class for chinese, which really sucks.

well.

God is cool.

by His grace, He let me pass sec1.
but He didnt let me take His grace forgtanted.
so although my marks werent that bad,
they were really lousy compared to my friends.

well, fair enough.

thank You, Jesus. i love You.

well, i should learn from this. discipline, mainly. i seriously lacked discipline. but most importantly, prayer. alot of prayer. and trust. yeah. trust in Him, the everlasting.

ongko and boon have started tuition for next year's work. maybe when the hols start, i'll get my books asap and start reading through. i want to take sec2 seriously. no playplay.

man. i feel damn emo again.

jaime, sam, lydia } isit okay if i dont join yal tmr? i feel like i need a break, and ive also got an assignment to rush. sorry ):

i feel like theres something i want alot that i cant get, but i dont know what it is.

bleah ):

ohboy. ive been blogging so much lately. lol.

well, gonna be pretty busy till holidays start. with dates and stuff. ohboy. and when holidays start, thats when lots of other things start. like getting a wee bit started on sec2, holiday homework, camp, mission trip, dates and stuff.. man. i guess i'm gonna be really busy till sec2 starts. but when sec2 starts, that means no more playtime. so.. looks like i'm gonna be busy for a while eh.

sigh. and i'm only 13. imagine when o lvl days come. or when a lvl days come, if i do manage to get into jc. why, by then i bet i'll be so busy studying i wont even have time for a pee.

looks like i'll have to wait till i finish studies before i get into a relationship, if i ever do.

that was out of point. but yeah, i've been thinking.

i still dont know what im gonna do when i grow up. there isnt exactly anything i'm good at, and nothing that really interests me anymore. but i dont want to be heading no where. figured that i'd have to work out where i'm heading so that i;d have something to work towards.

mother calls.

goodnight. ♥ 11:28 PM

Tuesday, October 18, 2005

hello!

haha. guess what. got back quite a few results today. guess what. i didnt fail anything at all! truely by the grace of God man. (: well, maths was good. aparently i got second best in class. quite happy la (: heh heh (: english was not bad, but i couldve gotten one mark more. careless mistakes la. heh. chem was ok, just that i couldve gotten much much more. but i'm still really grateful la. (: heh. and bio? i thought i would fail. i was prepared to get a F9. i even brought tissue and all, just in case. and guess what! i got a B_!! i was so so happy, though i got so so many questions wrong. i was just really happy i passed. thank you Jesus (:

heh heh. now that exams are finally over, ive been spending alot of money lately. cant spend that much this week cos (...). ohwells.

looking forward to tmr. haha. and thursday will be my so called reunion with jaime, sam, lyd, san at sam's house. haha i hope her dog doesnt lick me soggy. oh, and on friday is the piano jazz concert thing at the esplanade. i thought the school had already paid for us to go. aparently, we've already paid for it during our one-time-payment thing. ohwells. oh! and daddy's coming home on friday night, so i'm really looking forward to friday. haha. and this saturday i might go out with mel and mab, and then go for web? duno la. haha. and sunday's missions meeting! we're gonna learn some thai (: waha. ive forgotten all my thai words. i just know how to say "nao makk", which means it's very cold, and "hong nham uti naii", which means where is the toilet. haha. and then on monday i might be going town with kara. oh! and on the last day of school i have a sesametwins date (: gonna stay over at mab's house and we're gonna go star gazing and all. haha. really looking forward to all that man!

funny how i've been having really crazy mood swings lately. well, now i'm up. i;d better enjoy myself cos baby i'm going down.

oh ya! and i cant wait for the generation camp 05 - united in love! it's gonna be a blast. life changing? maybe. more like impactful encounters. haha. i cant wait! oh, and theres also inside out service, and velocity concert. haha. cant wait man! (:

mabel: why did you say no one cares? i care i care! love you st1 (: my sweet sistahh (: haha and YES, i wont forget out date! n-e-v-e-r. never ever ever. (: eh! you dont go and for-get too arh! hahahhaa. i will KILL you. haha. kidding (: i love you (:

kara: you didnt die wad! your results were not bad right? haha. love you too!

vick: hi cloney! haha. yeah. changed it again (: oei! when are we finally gonna go out eh eh? IMISSYOULAH, clone! love ya!

nat: haha yay (: wish i were the one who designed it though. =P ♥ 6:05 PM

Sunday, October 16, 2005

so how?

daddy went overseas again. do pray for him, for those who know about this trip. he'll only be back this friday. this is one of the few and rare times i'm REALLY gonna miss my daddy a whole lot. this week is really gonna be a huge challenge.

i know i'm not gonna get good results for eoys.
but i dont know my results yet.
dont really wanna know.

i kinda know how things have changed so much.
dont know how much more they'll change.
dont really wanna know.

i know how much ive lost.
dont know how much more i'll lose.
dont really wanna know.

friends come and go,
i know.

dont know what the future holds.
dont know where i'm heading.

i dont know anything.

i dont know anything real.

i know my future is in His hands and all i just need to have faith in Him and learn to trust in Him fully cos He'll surprise me and all cos He has planned a future for me, if only i would trust in Him and stuff like that. i know all that; i know. it's just that.. i dont know how.

maybe im doing things wrong.
maybe it;s just me.

can somebody please tell me what's going on
tell me what's going on
if you open your eyes
you'll see that something
something is wrong

here, try some failure. it's a little cold and bitter; no kick. it'll wear off after a while. or you might just get used to it after a while.

i think the bar of my value meter just dropped so far it's gonna hit the ground.

boom.

there goes.

i'm out.

it's downhill from here.

i surrender
my life's big chunks - my security; my future.
i know i'm in good hands.

and still..

why am i feeling this way ♥ 10:45 PM

Friday, October 14, 2005

happy birthday kim
happy birthday korkor

love yal loads.

chilling with mabel was fun.
really love the stuff we bought man.

today was not bad too.
went to town with kara and audrey.
love the stuff we bought man.
but now my wallet is really empty.
that means no shopping this weekend.
well, it's worth it..i think.
then at 3 something mingxuan and tim and gideon came.
then we got my brother's present.
quite fun la. haha.

the surprise party was not bad la.

ok. enough.

I go up, I come down and I'm emptier inside
Tell me what is this thing that I feel like I'm missing
And why can't I let it go ♥ 11:18 PM

Thursday, October 13, 2005

aparently titus wants me to do this.

here goes.

7 things that scare me:
1: the wrath of God
2: open wounds & blood
3: fickle minded friends
4: being alone
5: future
6: dying a slow and horrible death
7: snakes

7 things i love the most:
1: God
2: family
3: friends
4: thais
5: flowers
6: food
7: shopping

7 important things in my room:
1: bed
2: table
3: light
4: laptop
5: clock
6: photos
7: letters

7 random facts about me:
1: i love flowers
2: i wear glasses
3: i have a weird temper
4: i dont like pink
5: i cant afford the kind of clothes i really really like
6: i cant wait to grow up
7: i dont understand myself

7 things i wanna do when i die:
1: meet God
2: praise Him!
3: praise Him!
4: praise Him!
5: praise Him!
6: praise Him!
7: praise Him!

7 things i can do:
1: eat more food than my brother, if i;m hungry
2: stone around for hours
3: laugh over nothing
4: cry over nothing
5: walk around a shop pointing at things i cant afford saying "i like this" non stop
6: get high on.. nothing actually. i just get high,
7: talk alot about bgr when i havent been in one and dont intend to, yet.

7 things i can't do yet:
1: date
2: finish studies
3: get married
4: adopt kids
5: play guitar & bass
6: play drums
7: play piano well

7 words i say the most:
1: haha
2: ok
3: huh?
4: um
5: like
6: uhh
7: ya

7 celeb crushes:
1:
2:
3:
4:
5:
6:
7:

7 peeps i'd love to see doing this:
1: mabel
2: kara
3: andrea tan
4: sarah
5: galvin
6: jo-ann
7: doralynn ♥ 9:52 PM

Wednesday, October 12, 2005

EOYS ARE OVERR (:

hahahaha.

Praise God (:

thanks for all those who prayed. love yal! (:

im at mabel's house now. staying over haha.

went to town with mabel today. had quite alot of fun. haha. now mabel owes me money!!! hahaha. joking (:

man. i really wanted to buy so many of those nice nice clothes. damn glam la. but then.. no money. and i dont have the figure to fit into those super nice clothes. damn glam la. super super lovely. argh. so well.. next time then! hahaha..

ok. i wont tell you anymore hahahahaha.

byee! ♥ 8:57 PM

Tuesday, October 11, 2005

HI EUNICE<3 !
exams are ending TOMORROW, yay (:
anyway, glad you've cheered up
seeyou in school tomorrow,
i love eunice (:


kara ♥ 7:49 PM

Monday, October 10, 2005

practically every paper was a screw up
even my english and chinese paper one
yes, everything.

argh.

yesterday was so funny.
i really enjoyed myself, till 930 pm.
then the rest of last night was !#$%^&*
ah. it was sad.
screw it.

i'm going mabel's place to study chinese tmr.
her oh-so-cool mummy is gonna help me
exciting la. but.. not yet.

exams are almost over.
i should be excited.

i'm going out on wednesday.
it's gonna be a sesametwins thing.
exciting la. but.. not yet.

thursday and friday is marking holiday.
that means i have a long weekend.

hum.

petrus told me nic and sam are back from nz.
i should be excited.

the internet just disconnected.
cranky wireless connection.
kapoot.

i need privacy. i need trust. and.. i need ____. everyone does. above all, i know i need Jesus. i know i have Jesus. i know Jesus is all i'll ever need. but somehow..

oh. and i also need money. so many useless things i want to get my hands on.

take over _. i cant be bothered. oh. and have fun.

cos i quit.

i'm annoyed.

i want to go to sleep.

i want to sleep till the weekend comes. then i'll be all charged up to party. and i wont talk funny from over brain usage and lack of sleep.

oh.

this is funny.
well not exactly.

oh nevermind.

oh goodness. this is getting really annoying. well then. get off the comp, bathe, then mug.

ARGH.

ok. that felt a weeeeebit better.

ohshit. it's 3pm. i havent started on anything. and _ is getting really annoying. seriously, i dont give a _. just _ la.

you can fill in the blanks with whatever word or phrase you want. i'll leave it to you.

nyyarghhh.

enough said.

i'm outta here. ♥ 1:57 PM

Saturday, October 08, 2005

lol.

i was reading through my archives. all of them. seeing how so much has changed within less than a year. man. if i had kept previous blog i'd be able to prove myself even better. and my previous tagboards. man.

guess this isnt a very good time to be feeling this way, with exams and all. so what now. push everything aside so i can concentrate on mugging for my exams. cos they're what's important eh. putting in my best for exams. whether i get good or bad grades it doesnt matter. so long as i put in my best into my studies.

what about me?

what if i chose not to put in my best. would you still love me? what if i failed every subject. would you still love me? what if i drop out of school. would you still love me? what if i never forgive you. would you still love me?

guess i'm still looking for what everyone else out there is looking for.

i know ive found it. i know ive found it in Jesus.

so then, why am i feeling this way?

times like this. when reality hits.

i'm sure you know what it's like.

though it feels no one understands. i know you've been through this. i know lah. it's "all part of growing up".

why then. tell me. why cant you just understand me?

lol.

there's gotta be more to life
than chasing down every temporary high
to satisfy me ♥ 12:34 PM

Friday, October 07, 2005

before i start, here's next week's exam schedule.

10/10
math1 (0805h - 0920h)
math2 (1035h - 1150h)

11/10
HISTORY (0805h - 0935h)

12/10
CL2 (0805h - 0935h)
CL3 (1005h - 1050h)

lol. then it's party time! haha.

ok,

hello.

today's bio paper was really bad. i practically had to guess everything. chem seemed easy, until after the paper when i found out that alot of my answers were totally wrong. ohwells.

we're half way through the exams. that was fast. really gotta buck up.

wonder if i should go mabel's church this sunday. i really wanna go but i'm not sure i can. well, maybe after the exams i suppose. we'll see,

amazing how everything can change in just a moment.
i'm quite amazed at myself.

as in. not in the sense of my studies. it'll be a miracle if i get good grades this sem.

ohwells.

the sesametwins wanna go out after the exams. as in, after our last paper, which is on wednesday. but what are we gonna do? since we're gonna go to town to pierce our ears & take neos & star gazing & sleepover, on the last day of school. hah. i wanna go on a shopping spree man. i wanna buy lotsa clothes and accessories and stuff. too bad no money. hah.

funny how i'm getting sick of this layout already. cant wait till after the exams when jojo finally decides to make one of her lovely layouts for me (:

wellwell. the weekend is finally here. i think i'm gonna nap the whole of today, and then mug tonight till 2. and then i'll sleep again. and then tmr i'll TRY to wake up early and study till it's time to go church and then after church and dinner i'll come straight home and hit the books again. and then the whole of sunday i'm gonna stay at home and mug. or sleep. heh.

ive put on alot of weight. i have chubby cheeks now, which frankly doesnt look that bad la. but i really need to do situps now. it's getting ugly. after the exams jojo and i might go running at the track just next to my place. and sesametwins might swim&tanat my place? heh. and diet together too. and exercise. and sleepover.

ive been cracking my nuckles alot lately, when they're already big fat & ugly. must be due to the so called stress. man it'll be so damn embarrassing when i'm older when my mister-perfect-boyfriend proposes and the ring cant fit. crap la.

kim's moving to shanghai after christmas this year. crap la i'm gonna be so sad. kim i'll miss you crazy! we have to still keep in touch okay? will you ever come back? i love you! :D

yahoo. i'm gonna go out so much after the exams i'm gonna go broke. anyone care to donate to the eunice-wants-to-enjoy-post-exams fund? please donate generously :D

haha ok. it's past 2pm already. time for my nap.

goodnight! ♥ 2:06 PM

Wednesday, October 05, 2005

[editted 6/10]

oh dear me.
here come the exams.
i just noticed they did give us the timing after all. heh heh (:

here's the details =/

5/10
EL1 (0805h - 0950h)
CL1 (1105h - 1235h)

6/10
EL2 (0805h - 0945h)
geog (1105h - 1235h)

7/10
bio (0805h - 0920h)
chem (1035h - 1150h)

10/10
math1 (0805h - 0920h)
math2 (1035h - 1150h)

11/10
HISTORY (0805h - 0935h)

12/10
CL2 (0805h - 0935h)
CL3 (1005h - 1050h)

yes, so that's the horrible eoys' date&time.

let me show you (&myself) my progress thus far; though there hasnt been much. but whatever.

english
compo notes, letter writing format

chinese
16, 17, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, ying yong wen, letter writing format&vocab.

geography
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54.

biology
06, 19, 20, 22.

chemistry
01, 07, 08, 09, 10.

maths
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09, 10, 11, 12 13, 14, 15.

history
7, 8, 9, 1, 2, 3, sbq notes.

okay. i'm going to do more geog now. goodnight! ♥ 2:02 PM

Tuesday, October 04, 2005

i'll edit this post frequently to mark my progress, if any. haha.

i dont know how.
i dont know why.

but whatever.

but dont expect me to react this way again next time, although i really hope there wont be a next time. though i know this will happen again. many times, in fact. but whatever.

i didnt study today.

exams are just ONE DAY AWAY!!!

here's what i have left to study. striked out means ive completed it. you can check my "dates" section for my exam schedule, if you want.

english
compo notes, letter writing format

chinese
16, 17, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, ying yong wen, letter writing format&vocab.

geography
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09, 10, 11, 12, 13, 14, 15, 16, 17, 18, 19, 20, 21, 22, 23, 24, 25, 26, 27, 28, 29, 30, 31, 32, 33, 34, 35, 36, 37, 38, 39, 47, 48, 49, 50, 51, 52, 53, 54.

biology
06, 19, 20, 22.

chemistry
01, 07, 08, 09, 10.

maths
01, 02, 03, 04, 05, 06, 07, 08, 09, 10, 11, 12 13, 14, 15.

history
7, 8, 9, 1, 2, 3, sbq notes.

yes, i have more or less TWO days to complete all that. i've no one else but myself to blame. but right now ive got to focus on progressing in my revision.

sidetrack a little.

should i have a second piercing on one side of my ear?i dont think so, but i feel like trying out just for fun! haha. but i dont want to regret. ohwells. i dont know. any opinions? tagboards open.

ok. time to plan my days.

prayers are much appreciated. prayer requests are welcome too. contact me.

could you call me or msg me to check on me from time to time? to make sure im not slacking away my prescious time. thankyou.

goodnight & goodbye. ♥ 12:11 PM

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